No, I am not dead. No, I have not been sent into the Witness Protection Program and thus why I have not posted in a while…
Life has become more of a roller coaster in the past six months, more so than I ever imagined. I unfortunately have not had any time to do much of anything besides sleep; even my workouts have suffered. They’ve changed my position at work a bit and it’s kept be busy beyond belief. Not only that, we’ve changed offices and now I’m commuting an extra hour a day. And in order to get a parking spot, I have to leave at the crack of dawn.
On top of all this, we’ve had a few family health issues in the past few months that have kept me on my toes more so than usual.
Basically life has changed… a lot and continues to do so. To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. Any chance I can sit and just be is like heaven on earth. But with all of this chaotic change, came parts of my life that had to take a back seat for a while. This blog of mine, unfortunately, was one of them. Crafting was one of them. My etsy shop was another. My social life took another nose dive and I say a huge ‘thank you’ to my friends who have understood my chaos and haven’t disowned me for it! Fortunately for me and unfortunately for them, most are going through similar life situations.
The past few weeks have caused me to do a lot of thinking: where I’m going, what I want to do, etc. Obviously, new years will do that to you. It’s the hot thing: resolutions and all that. But with the changes going on at work and the changes going on at home, I’ve forced myself to take another look at everything and see what changes I need to make in order to feel normal again.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not unhappy through all of this. I have to say I’m VERY proud of myself and how I’ve handled all of this change. If you had put last year’s me in this year’s situation, I’m not sure that girl would have made it through. I was in a bad place last year personally; I was surrounded by bad juju and a bad support system and made the decision that 2013 would be the year to change all of that. And I did: I am incredibly calm about everything. Stressed, yes, but calm. And happy. Quite happy. One of those contented happinesses that are quite rare, especially in D.C.
2013, however, was quite a challenge for me because it was a huge year of finding myself. It was kind of the first year in a long time I actually learned/had the chance to be myself, to be me and not let myself get influenced by so many others. That, i’ve discovered, is a bit of a personality flaw of mine… partially blamed on being a Pisces. We tend to do that: to absorb the feelings of others and place that burden on ourself in addition to absorbing others personalities and making them our own… which, if you aren’t careful can be more harm than good. But I’ve done a lot of amazing things this year like losing 50 lbs for instance. Sometimes I forget how big of a feat that is, huge even. I lost a whole elementary schooler! Once upon a time, I lost quite a lot more and I’ve struggled with that this year only because it’s taken me much longer to do so this time than last time. But I’ve had to keep in mind that I had a much different situation last time and just need to continue to adapt. This time I’ve been building a lot more muscle. That I know. That I can tell. And it feels amazing. 🙂 Along with the weight loss, I took on a new position at work, reignited old friendships, made some new ones, challenged myself personally and tried to do something that scared me more often than not, sewed a satin gown, made some decisions on my future including finally taking the GRE’s, among many other things…
This year already is bringing more new and exciting things! I’m in the process of making some major plans for September, of which, I don’t want to jinx until they are final so you’ll just have to wait on those. I’m doing a short product presentation on one of our webinars at work in a few weeks (kind of freaking out about it, but still excited!) and working on a major project at work that will be launching in a few months (again, so excited!). Trying to get back some social aspects of my life and have resolved to do at least one or two outings with friends a month. That probably sounds so lame, but baby steps, y’all, baby steps.
So there we have it and here we go. 2013 was an interesting year, great, but interesting. 2014 is going to be amazing.
I can’t wait.
I hope everyone had a great holiday and a happy new year! May 2014 bring you happiness and joy in whatever you do! And may you all remain healthy!